Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I'm Too Tired to be Blogging (Yet Again)

Today started out much like most other school days; I woke up cursing myself for taking a class that requires me to set an alarm. And after the short argument with myself about just skipping class and sleeping (somehow I seem to be losing this argument lately and going to class), I got up and went about getting ready as normal. The only real difference between this morning and most mornings I'm up is that Anchorage was covered in a thick blanket of fog; the kind that gives a surreal quality to the world when you look out your window. I'd be a liar if I said I didn't enjoy weather like that. And that's about where the enjoyment of my day ended.
As I usually do, I stopped by the Kaladi Brothers coffee near my house on the way to school. I've been there enough that most the employees know me and they're usually pretty nice. But a few days ago one of them wasn't so nice. Not that she was mean, but kind of distant (and distant as a personality trait is never nice). And now that distance that she once showed seems to have spread to the rest of the employees at the coffee shop. And that sucks. No matter how crappy a day was, I could always look forward to a little pick me up by going there and the employees having a chipper "how's it going?". And as a way to officially start the day, that "how's it going?" could hardly be beat. And today it seems like that moment might have died. Maybe I'm imagining this or maybe it's just I've been catching the various employees when they've been having a bad time themselves lately and it's nothing personal towards me. I'll try one more time and go from there. It's gonna suck if I have to find a new coffee shop and change up my school day routine.
So in a not-so-great mood, I went to school. And I'll be damned if I didn't feel like I'd suddenly been turned into a pariah. I can't quite explain it, but it seemed like I was being avoided as best possible. As though people went out of their way to not use the same door as me or any conversation that must be had was kept as short as possible (and I checked in the mirror; no bugger hanging from my nose or anything). And this lasted the whole school day. At least it felt that way.
Needless to say I got home and today didn't feel like a good day. It was a bad day for intangible reasons, which makes me wonder if I can really call it a bad day.
In retro-spec, at least my car didn't blow up on me (with the odd noises it makes from time to time, I'm sure it's going to do so any day now). If for whatever reason I don't make any new friends this semester and I'm just constantly avoided, oh well. As much as that idea sucks, my reason for being there is to get a degree, not meet new people. However, I'm going to be super bummed if I have to change coffee shops.

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