Tales of an Alcoholic Nothing, pt. 8

Not as Ready as I Thought I Was; or Change to the Change, but this Change With More Thought Than the Last Change.

As I've said before and will undoubtedly say again, the number one thing I can do for myself to improve my life is to quit drinking. It's especially the best thing I can do for my professional life, which I figure I should start taking a little more seriously now that I'm in my 40s. But even in other aspects of my life, it would be a very good change. However, my recent decision to quit was a bit of a spur-of-the-moment decision (at least however spur-of-the-moment a decision can be that one has been contemplating for years) and as it turns out, I'm not at all ready to just quit right now. 

I know there will always be a reason to keep drinking is I allow myself that. But I also know that when I did sober 2020, it was something I prepared myself for and in that regard, I did quite well. So after a good bit of thought (and a couple of beers), I've decided I'm going to keep on drinking for the remainder of 2021. After that though, I fully intend to go mostly sober. 

What's "mostly sober"? you might ask... It means I will only drink on ten days out of the year. Those ten days being Alaska Beer Week which happens in the latter half of January. And I know that sounds really weird, like who the hell only drinks ten days out of the year and then makes it so those ten days are all in succession? Well, me. And that's actually something I've been thinking about for years as well. In fact, pre-sober 2020, I was very much considering doing just that. And I actually think I can pull it off. Having those ten days will give me an outlet so I don't feel completely trapped. Why do I feel trapped by the idea of being sober for the rest of my life (or at least until I'm rich or retired)? I have no idea, but it's definitely a feeling I have whenever I think about not having a delicious beer ever again. 

Now just because I'll be drinking for the rest of 2021 doesn't mean I plan to be drunk for the rest of the year. Undoubtedly, most weekends will be spent drunk, but I'd like my work weeks to be a bit more productive than they have been in the past. Also, I hate going to work hungover.

Anyways, I know this is kind of a rambling blog entry, and I swear I'm not actually drinking right now, but I figured I'd let the half-dozen people that read this thing know what's up. And for the rest of this year, I do truly hope to share some good beers with some great friends. Of course, that unfortunately only applies to my friends in Alaska, but if I were rich enough to just fly to everyone's home I wanted to share a drink with, then I wouldn't be worrying about my drinking and instead would just be another rich and drunk jackass on TMZ. 

Also, I do plan to write about things other than my drinking soon. Probably not in any way relevant things, but it will be something different.