The New News is Old News

So... I'm single again. I don't really want to go into the details of the breakup. Mostly because while I have very little problem talking about my personal life (obviously), I don't like talking about other people's personal lives. (At least not anymore). I hope all the best for her and while this chapter of our respective lives has come to an end, I'm sure we each have an appearance or two in each other's stories further along.

Anyways, while the breakup happened a decent amount of time ago, it's only really just been setting in. And it doesn't feel great. Not that I thought it would, I just don't remember last time feeling so - for lack of a better word - lost, from it. But then I do remember that last time I was able to drink. And drink I did! And for too many nights I was nothing but drunk (which was what led to that whole Sober 2020 thing). This time, that's not really an option. I have to deal with the shittiness of a breakup head-on and I'm going to have to learn to actually move on. Which, for anyone that's known me for a decent amount of time knows, is not something I'm good at.

All that said, my apologies to those I keep telling "we need to catch up," I keep meaning to call or stop by, and then I find myself not wanting to see people. I'm going to try and do better this summer. Unlike the last breakup, I'm also going to try and follow my therapist's advice and just focus on me for awhile (i.e. no dating or romantic pursuits). "Awhile" being at least for the summer, in which I'm hoping to do a lot of hiking instead - maybe some other Alaska exploring as well. I fucking love this state and really need to get out into it more.