(Over) Three Months Down
I've noticed a couple big differences between deciding to quit* drinking and when I was just taking long breaks. First and foremost is that I am not saving money like normal. This is is no small part thanks to my old car being a POS and my new car having a payment, so unless I get a second job (something I've been considering, but would rather not unless I absolutely have to), my bank account will be looking rather empty for awhile. And while I'd like to make a joke about how having an empty bank account means I won't be able to buy booze, I think most of us know that when it comes to getting alcohol - where there's a will, there's a way.
The other big difference is that I have not jumped right back into having a physical lifestyle as I usually do. Normally by the end of the first month of trying to be sober I'm back into going to jiu jitsu (somewhat) regularly and at least doing near daily walks, if not setting up a jogging routine. This time, I can count on one hand how many time I've been to jiu jitsu and all that was during my first month of not drinking. I can also count how many times I've put my treadmill to use and, since passing my PT test in early December, that can also be done on one hand. Now to be fair to myself, I did decide to join the work volleyball team a couple weeks ago so I'd at least be doing something somewhat active. However, last week I managed to roll my ankle (during practice nonetheless!) so now it's going to be at least a few more weeks before trying to establish a decent workout/physical activity routine.
On the plus side, I haven't been craving drinking as much as I thought. There's been a couple times I seriously considered just drinking (my entire life away), but they were relatively short lived and for the most part, I've been pretty happy being sober. That being said, I know that without a good physical routine, it's going to be much harder to stay this way, especially come summer. It's all too easy to rationalize having "just a couple" when I'm sitting around doing nothing. But not so much when I'm being active, especially as being active tends to make me want to stay active and I know nothing turns me into a lazy slob like alcohol.
While my ankle heals, I'm going to have to be OK with not doing much. But I'm really hoping by this summer to be out and about, especially hiking (now that I have a vehicle I trust to get me where I'm going) and hopefully back to jogging to. And maybe even jiu jitsu too, though in all honesty, the older I get the more I wonder if it's really such a good idea for me to be giving twenty-somethings the opportunity to rip my head off.