Haven't Done One of These in Awhile

There really hasn't been a lot to write about lately. I finished my first real school and I think I passed all my classes (I'm a little worried about Music Appreciation). But that doesn't seem like anything worth writing a blog about.
I could whine about things with Aimee. But that wouldn't make her any less dumb and many any less dumber.
I thought about trying to not whine in a blog, but then people would wonder if I was alright or on drugs.

I don't like where I'm at in life, as in living back in Anchorage. But I've realized that this is where God wants me to be. And as I've come to accept that reality, certain things have ceased to bother me as much. I wish I had a better idea of what He's up to though; because whatever I always think it is it never turns out to be. And sometimes no matter what it is, there's a certain disappointment to it not being what I was hoping for.
I've also been doing a lot of introspective thinking and owning up to my flaws that I like to pretend I don't have. But just because I'm willing to accept responsibility doesn't mean I'm willing to accept the consequences.
There's a little voice inside me that says everything is going to be ok. But during moments of solitude when I look at the mountains that form the backdrop of Anchorage, he quits being a little voice. He's loud and he's proud and he's singing so loud I worry someone else might hear. But then there's moments when he's an inaudible whisper, fighting against the screams of failure and hopelessness, when the memories of all the moments I wish I could forget just play themselves over and over again in my head.